havent write anything for ages!!!!! been down for a bit, but i know am going to be great! coz am going back to hk soon!!! miss all my girlies so so so much!! also those not so buddy buddy guys. am not saying that i wont miss my super girlies still staying in uk when am back to hk or that am not sad abt leaving, it's just that i miss chinese new year in hk so much and all my dearest frd in hk so much!!!

thinking back, the best girlies i ever met was in uk also my one and only "know everything abt me" guy. i love them to bits!!!! they are like my personnal talkie dump bags, talks to them abt watever on my mind, can chat for ages and ages and ages!!! i'll miss our little chat over time so much now that i left my best guy in uk, in the same time i shall enjoy all my new year food till am properly fatten up!!!!!! then i'll moan to u abt how fat i become!!! hahaha!!!!! wait for my interesting story girlies and guys!!!!!

wat happen is i just found this song which match my feeling perfectly at the moment!!! cool isnt it?

that is like wat i always felt like.... n u never got a clue, isn't it? 

that is like the sentence u reli like sayin to me, isn't it?

u always think we have no problems, all the problems been my imagination!! isn't it?

i never felt anything from u except u actually dun want me there..... am wasting ur time..... never did anything........ never appreciate u...... always been mean to u....... making up problems..... wasting the space even!!!!! that is wat i always felt.......  u never liked me, isn't it?

或許錯在我　太晚我才懂　愛了你太多

想太多- 李玖哲

你笑著說　他是朋友
但你眼中太溫柔
我的不安　那麼沉重
只有你不懂
他霸佔了　你的心中
屬於我的角落
所以你說　我們　
不是你和我
是我想太多　你總這樣說
但你卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸佔了　你的心中
屬於我的角落
所以你說　我們
不是你和我
是我想太多　你總這樣說
但你卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我沒有　錯怪了什麼
雖然你不說　或許錯在我
太晚我才懂　愛了你太多
是我想太多　你總這樣說
但你卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由

.........angry.............. hit by great disappointment and am not manage to get things  done as i wanted. as i caught up in  this depression recently felt!!! am going to stay mad n disappoint for quite a while............i could just say it's all abt timing...... u got into da wrong timing then i'll react like so............ it's  not even been a week since then.... how can i take another disappointment??? am feeling so tired........ suddenly feeling so stupid!!!! how can i not see that coming?? i knew it for ages..... but still got disappointed..... the way u act, u think, u do......cannot believe how stupid i am......or should i say how stupid u think i am..........i would say the least u can do is to make me feel better after that..............but no......... instead, i got to found out sth anger me more.......problems??? i think YES!!!!!! do  want my answer by the end of this week..... if not, i'll find an answer to all my question... just want to calm myself now...... have a deep think abt should i not to bother wat never been mine from the start??